log book hilang..

Ya Allah,.. beratnya dugaan.. tolong lah beri kesabaran dan kekuatan..
if you ask any medical student, they would say the log book is like their life. Now I lost it means I lost my life!!...

Sob sob.. feel like crying.. but crying won't do anything.. What should I do??..

ANGER!!!!

Very angry with the washing machines down there!! and the person who cut the line!!! I was waiting inside the room and when i want to use the machine, she came in out of nowhere and claimed that it was her turn. She had been waiting like longer than me and was sitting outside the room. What the heck??.. why not tell me before hand?? i was waiting for nothing. that makes me mad.. to top of it, today is men's day, so sah2 lepas ni boys nak pakai machine. dah la ade 1 je, takkan nak berebut dgn diorg.. it's their days, i shouldn't be disturbing them, wouldn't I??..

Sad......:-(

Salam..

These last two days were very challenging to me.. My car was knocked down by other car when the driver wanted to park just beside my "perfectly parked" car.. The accident happened exactly in front of my eyes!!..Not only that, the accident nearly causing injuries to me. Syukur alhamdulillah, i wasn't injured. I was at the back of the car , and if i just take a few more steps to the left, i might be in the hospital now. Syukur ya Allah, i was not.. thanks to my friend who foresee the condition and acted immediately. Though my left calf was in pain after the accident. My mom was really angry. To my mom, its okay, your daughter is fine. hehe

after the accident, I was in denial for a few minutes. I was shocked, i dont know how to react.i should yell or i should just stay quite?. All my limbs were shaking yet i acted cool. I could not get mad at that time. The driver came out from the car and said sorry. Then straight away she asked "how much is the repair cost?". I was in disbelief cause she sounds like she got alot of money. But JPA still didn't give them the allowance for this semester yet. Then I said, " takkan nak bayar sendiri kot, JPA kan tak masuk lg" .. I dont know why I couldn't get mad at that time.

The one that "langgar" my car was actually my classmate. And the worst is the car is not hers. It was her friends' caar. And she was an inexperienced driver..that made me questioned her, why let other people drive your car?. And i was more angry coz there were a lot more parking lots for her to park yet she chose the one beside me.. If I were as inexperienced as her, i would never chose a park that has cars beside it. I'd rather chose the one with no cars beside it bilaterally.

Previously, she offered to settle this thing without police report. She was willing to pay for both cars. I didn't agree coz she is just a student. How can she get the money for both cars??.. Plus, my mom said "tak kisah nak byr macammana, report tetap buat. Kalau nak bayar sendiri pun report still kene buat".

Then, to make things easier and faster, I asked her back after reporting the accident to know whether she is capable of compensating the damage she had done to my car ONLY , like what she offered previously. i'm a bit reluctant to claim from her friends' insurance company coz it will take time (remember the car is not hers) . Suddenly, she doesn't want to do that because she don't have money. I was like?? What happened to your previous offer???..

That's why I was mad. (mood right now: angry)

I was not this angry yesterday. But today, seriously.. i felt what she had done was troublesome to me and also to my friends. I was not mad for her to langgar my car. things had happened, nothing could be done to rewind back time. I was mad coz she seems not willing to be helpful enough. She didn't even answer my call yesterday. Why?.. Afraid??.. why should you??.. take responsible la my dear friend.. Maybe what i demands was a little bit too high. But you shouldn't offer if you couldn't afford it. She was not even care to ask, do you need any help ke?.. I was her classmate, if I was somebody else with no relation to her, then its ok to keep quite.I don't know how her friend feels. But if i were in her friends' shoes, i wouldn't want to talk with her anymore.

Not so bad.. still involve thousand ringgit and my car was just 5 months old..haish...:-(

And also, my Mr A ni langsung tak dtg to see how i'm doing, how's my car doing.. Only call je..

Salam..

Hye..meet me again!!!

After hibernating for about 1 year, i'm BACK!!!.. because of my bestie's request to post this.. hahaha..

Look like twins, aren't we??? ^^

May our friendship stays forever and may it never sway with just little misunderstanding. (talking from experience..)

since is is just a day before new year, i would like to wish everybody a HAPPY NEW YEAR. hope next year will be better than this year.. Hope i will pass through this year with a smiling and happy face.

To my housemates:::: esok kite mau masak ikan sweet sour!!.. yeay!

kenape?

Slm ramadhan again

Kenape ye?..why we always find other people's fault?? slagi ade salah, even tak salah pun.. still nak salahkan.. what's so great of being right?.. kalau dalam periksa makes sense la nak kene betol. but in reality people do mistakes, instead of scolding people why dont u try to teach and have a slow talk.. Even our prophet pun tak pernah ajar tengking2.. (from what i know. if there is a history yg Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. pernah tengking2 orang please tell me)

"Just because you are superior, you have the right to do so".. Is that what the world really is? If the other person is really at wrong, than its okay to get mad. Tapi ni selagi ade bende mesti nak cari salah even bende yg doesnt make sense. i really dont get it.. kenape ye?seronok kot tengok muke org tu terkulat2 kene marah kot..

clinical

Salam ramadhan

Out of sudden, i felt like i want to write something. maybe i was stressed out with this clinical years. So much things to do in so little time.

I just entered my clinical years mase "bersih" aritu. Like what seniors told us, clinical is really different with pre-clnical. I was really optimistic at first. However, as time goes on.. I felt tired. Starting to feel less motivated day by day.

Macam2 perasaan ade. Bile kene marah ngan nurse or dr, seriously i dont know how to face them again. Rase macam tak nak pergi hospital dah.. haish.. what to do?

whatever it is, life must go on. Face the difficulties now rather than in future. I am trying to think positive though it is sooooooo HARD.

I was really tired with this emotional war. But as a muslim, where else can we go except to HIM. Hope that my gloomy heart will forget all the bad things and remember all the good and nice things. huhu...

Ape2 pun, thanks to all yg mendengar masalah ku..

New resolution

Salam..

Salam Maal Hijrah to all muslims in the world.
May we have a better resolution for this year.
Today should be better than yesterday.. tomorrow should be better than today

Speaking of new resolution, i started to think what is mine?.. i dont even think of one yesterday..
What i said to myself is "even if i did think of it, i will not be able to follow it to the end"..

As i read a newspaper cut from metro about my senior who gets Anugerah Sri Paduka during Uitm's convocation recently, I started to think how can she be so determined and passionate.. How can I be like her?.. I'm starting to think do this profession really suits me?.. Being clever is actually not enough..

As i blogwalking just now, I found an article of a dr about his previous experience during his Ho..He doesnt recommend of getting married during that time coz you will have to "pay for it" (it means on calls obviously).. As i went along through his article, I find that it was a hectic life.. really!!!.. Then I started to picture myself in the story.. OMG, am I gonna fit in?????...
There's this big question and doubt in my head.. And he also said even there were tremendous numbers of medical students, most of it do not proceed with this career.. some jump into other business, some jump into another profession.. And lots of them goes to trainee lecturer just because they dont want to be sent to the rural area.. Well, i dont want if i were them.. I can tolerate peninsular m'sia, but nope with Sabah or Sarawak..That's why the doctors are outnumbered..

award

7 things bout myself eh

1. girl
2.muslim
3. a dr to be insyaallah
4. like to watch movies.
5. still in love with sidney sheldon
6. found a new dream in my life (those who watched rapunzel : A tangled story know what dis means..ngeh3..^^)
7. still finding where is the destination of my journey

fom@syawal

Seronok2!!!
The event was so happening!!!!!
it was the best syawal celebration since i became a medical student.
With A lot of performances.. never thought that so many of them know how to play instruments.. bleh buat klab kugiran..haha
Tangkap gmbr mcm org gila.. muke dah peluh2.. tp tak kire..hehe..so much fun dat
night.
dat was last 2 days.Tomorrow, i have to go to Selayang, i'm not as excited as before..guess why???
I have progress test on the next day!!!..
Whatever it is, i'm going to do venopuncture tomorrow.. never done it before..

before going to the event

Glee club of Medical faculty



enjoy

stomach pain

since saturday, my stomach ni meragam je..i guess coz of food poisoning.
but no diarrhea...
on Sunday baru ade diarrhea..until today.. i juz dont know how many time i had went to the toilet for the past few days..
makan2 kuar balik.
takkan x bleh mkn kot..
Sgt2 x best smpai kuar ngan dia ari tu pun cam xde mood.. so sorry!!

I felt dehydrated sgt..

My FOm ala2 dinner

salam..

My FOM @ syawal.. meriah, best, jadi gila2.. gila kamera, gila posing

but... i have exam on this friday.. n i'm not prepare for it. huhu
my life is going haywire at the moment... i guess i'm not suitable for multi-tasking job.

account hacked

my yahoo account had been hacked twice!!!!!!

I am really mad to those who did that.

How do i know that i had been hacked???

I couldn't access my email. n my friends had been asked for video conference by me.

ME????? I dont even have webcam!!!..N, I wasn't on9 at the time they got asked for the video conference.

That's why I knoe about this.. I'm sorry YANA and KHAI. whoever did this is really terrible

If you want to know more about the story, here is the link.

http://kaizen-arts.livejournal.com/36165.html?view=60229#t60229

hye.. so long

salam.. welcome back.

I dont know for how many months i left this blog. I feel sorry to all my followers..(walaupun xdela byk pun kan)

Since it is still in Syawal, i would like to express my gratitude towards all people that have helped me until now..either in my life problems or academic.. thank you so much.. n i would also like to ask for your forgiveness if i did something wrong before..

Selamat hari raya!!!!!

sampai bila

she doenst seem too care about what's happening rite now. am I the only one that thinks she is my best friend. she didn't even try to mend the relationship we have.. should i step down again???

i had talk n i had expressed my feelings.. n i thought it will clear out everything... tp....ape lagi yg kau nak??

you're being judgmental by blaming me without giving me a chance of explanation. you keep it quiet yet you expect me to understand your feelings.. how can i???? yet, even after I explained, I don't see any initiative of you to mend back our relationship.. what's wrong with you?? what do you expect me to do??.. why from before this until now, I am the only one yg selalu mengalah??.. why are you being so passive over something like this??

I'm trying to put our friendship back to normal, but you seem don't want to... you're not taking any move at all... silence doesn't resolve anything.. and also, I do know that u're ignorant.. BUT over something like this?????????... can't believe that u'll be ignorant too..

sakit tekak

Just got back from netball & basketball tournament. I'm not playing though, I was just cheering for them. But hey, its fun!!!.. Feels like all my problems fly away too with the voice..

I am very sad at the moment. N i guess I couldn't write it here coz some of you know about the person I'm going talk about. So, better not. Will keep it to myself. Hopefully, things will get better soon..

Sbg peringatan untk diri sendiri, it's better to keep quiet & do nothing rather than make the other party gets upset. Why not let it go without him or her knowing...........
I find that letting it go is much easier to do.

No other

I'm totally into NO OTHER by SUPER JUNIOR right now!!!!

Crazy..
crazy...me...

celebrating mom's birthday

2nd of July 1947..

I did celebrate her birthday. What did I gave her??
Forgive my niece for grabbing the fame of my mom..

haha

Who else?

Salam.

OKay, I am really in a boring state. I wanna read a book BUT dont have a book to read. Currently, I'm still in love with Sidney Sheldon's. He was a terrific author. Apart from JK Rowling. Well, u can see that I'm into horror-fiction-love genre. Not into friendship-family and so on. No suspense for me. (No offense tw.)

Right now, I want to change. I dont know who else is a good writer. Can you suggest some?
And, I wanna try to read non-fiction books. Somehow, it doesn't work for me. I still prefer fictions during my holidays. Well, it's a diff story if I was at school..hahaha

I'm sick of Uitm's website..

Since last two days, I've been trying to check my college result. Until now, I cannot access it. There are 3 servers but still I cannot access in any of them. Really piss me off. I'm losing my patience rite now..

Reunion MJSC Jeli @ Pantai Melawi Bachok

Date: 5 June 2010 - 6 June 2010

Location: Pantai Melawi

Activities: Barbeque, obviously swimming in the ocean
Attendance: around 50..
Somehow, I loike reunion.. Dont wanna miss it ever if possible.

"Peserta kursus"

Under the sunset..

Sue's birthday

Everybody is struggling to "burn" the chickens. Where is me?..

(Lazy .XD)

Finally arrived at Kelantan.

*Sequence of the pictures are in reverse.