clinical

Salam ramadhan

Out of sudden, i felt like i want to write something. maybe i was stressed out with this clinical years. So much things to do in so little time.

I just entered my clinical years mase "bersih" aritu. Like what seniors told us, clinical is really different with pre-clnical. I was really optimistic at first. However, as time goes on.. I felt tired. Starting to feel less motivated day by day.

Macam2 perasaan ade. Bile kene marah ngan nurse or dr, seriously i dont know how to face them again. Rase macam tak nak pergi hospital dah.. haish.. what to do?

whatever it is, life must go on. Face the difficulties now rather than in future. I am trying to think positive though it is sooooooo HARD.

I was really tired with this emotional war. But as a muslim, where else can we go except to HIM. Hope that my gloomy heart will forget all the bad things and remember all the good and nice things. huhu...

Ape2 pun, thanks to all yg mendengar masalah ku..

New resolution

Salam..

Salam Maal Hijrah to all muslims in the world.
May we have a better resolution for this year.
Today should be better than yesterday.. tomorrow should be better than today

Speaking of new resolution, i started to think what is mine?.. i dont even think of one yesterday..
What i said to myself is "even if i did think of it, i will not be able to follow it to the end"..

As i read a newspaper cut from metro about my senior who gets Anugerah Sri Paduka during Uitm's convocation recently, I started to think how can she be so determined and passionate.. How can I be like her?.. I'm starting to think do this profession really suits me?.. Being clever is actually not enough..

As i blogwalking just now, I found an article of a dr about his previous experience during his Ho..He doesnt recommend of getting married during that time coz you will have to "pay for it" (it means on calls obviously).. As i went along through his article, I find that it was a hectic life.. really!!!.. Then I started to picture myself in the story.. OMG, am I gonna fit in?????...
There's this big question and doubt in my head.. And he also said even there were tremendous numbers of medical students, most of it do not proceed with this career.. some jump into other business, some jump into another profession.. And lots of them goes to trainee lecturer just because they dont want to be sent to the rural area.. Well, i dont want if i were them.. I can tolerate peninsular m'sia, but nope with Sabah or Sarawak..That's why the doctors are outnumbered..

fom@syawal

Seronok2!!!
The event was so happening!!!!!
it was the best syawal celebration since i became a medical student.
With A lot of performances.. never thought that so many of them know how to play instruments.. bleh buat klab kugiran..haha
Tangkap gmbr mcm org gila.. muke dah peluh2.. tp tak kire..hehe..so much fun dat
night.
dat was last 2 days.Tomorrow, i have to go to Selayang, i'm not as excited as before..guess why???
I have progress test on the next day!!!..
Whatever it is, i'm going to do venopuncture tomorrow.. never done it before..

before going to the event

Glee club of Medical faculty



enjoy

stomach pain

since saturday, my stomach ni meragam je..i guess coz of food poisoning.
but no diarrhea...
on Sunday baru ade diarrhea..until today.. i juz dont know how many time i had went to the toilet for the past few days..
makan2 kuar balik.
takkan x bleh mkn kot..
Sgt2 x best smpai kuar ngan dia ari tu pun cam xde mood.. so sorry!!

I felt dehydrated sgt..

My FOm ala2 dinner

salam..

My FOM @ syawal.. meriah, best, jadi gila2.. gila kamera, gila posing

but... i have exam on this friday.. n i'm not prepare for it. huhu
my life is going haywire at the moment... i guess i'm not suitable for multi-tasking job.

++ Symptoms and treatment ++

DEMAM PIALA DUNIA.

It's a common disease of the world.It's very contagious.
And it comes every 4 years. Once it comes, everybody will be affected.

Symptoms of the disease is people will start to screaming in front of the tv. Some will purposely get mc. Some will walk like a zombie during work or class. But the most important symptom is you will be waking up at night almost every day. It's like insomnia.

BUT don't worry it does not need any treatment.
It is self-healing.

Result is out!!!

My final result is out!!!!!!!!!!


OH gosh, I'm so nervous when Naim told me that the result is out when I was still in Mecca..
I didn't have access there.
I didn't know anything, any news bout Malaysia or even the world.
And I was very shocked about the Mavi Marmara's issue.
I'm pissed off with the Israelians. (sounds like aliens..haha)
Where is their humanity ?????
And after that incident, the world suddenly realized how cruel they are.
Serve them right. Let them be pressured by other countries.
And now, Malaysia has guts to do something.
Before, we were only looking without doing nothing.
And I hope, there will be some unification to attack the Israel.
Well I didn't mean i a WAR-way.. I wouldn't want that too.
Let's pray for this to succeed.
Oh, I suddenly remembered, I met a Palestin in Mecca.
Well, from my point of view, she didn't looked like in a suffer-ism.
Who knows what inside her, right?

Well, I see that most of the professionals in these countries ( Iran, Iraq, etc) flee from their country. I have lots of lecturer from there too. And when asked about the reason of coming to Malaysia, the answer will be the same.

"BECAUSE OF THE WAR. THEY WANT SAFETY"

We can see that many people are actually afraid of Zionis. For what reason?
I guess it's because of the BIG support from US.
So, hopefully US also will take action against them.



By the way, about my result....


Hmm..let's keep it a secret. Or you might wanna guess.. :/

My deepest condolences to my BFF

Salam.

My Best friend aka my roomate aka my childhood friend since standard 5 is having a hard time right now. I dont know what to say. dont know how to react. She had just lost her sister because of an accident. The deceased left her family and 2 year old son. Yup!.. her only son..... so sad..
I couldn't imagine what I'll do if I was at her place. In the end I gave her some money before she went back home. Then I left my room to go for an event organized by my faculty..And when I got back to my room, she had gone and I found the check note on the floor and a there was a little tear on it.

Now, I felt that I did wrong. Was I wrong?? My feelings are all mixed together. I felt sad for she teared my money and threw it on the floor - oh, and it was near the dustbin - I guess, she tried to throw the money away.. But, isn't it common if we gave money to people who just lost someone??.. Again, did I do a wrong thing?... I tried to be understanding but still I felt very hurt... Should I talk to her about it?.. Or should I just keep it to myself?..I felt like to cry right now... Even if she doesn't want the money, why would she have to tear & throw it away like that............ oh, I really need someone to comfort me.. please.. can you?

Counting days.....

Salam..

I'm counting days..... not to my birthday nor to any wonderful events.
I'm counting days towards my final EXAM!!!!.. Which is about 2 weeks ( including this week )

Oh.. and still I'm doing this..Even my roommate is really focusing on, I still need some relax time. I couldn't keep going for the whole day without relaxing, could you?

To tell you, my last week was very challenging and *memang menguji kesabaran*. On thursday, I was in Uitm driving all the way from Trolak to Abg Man's house. Then, the next day, I drove back to ipoh bringing my parents along. To top of it, tayar kereta pancit!!!!!!!!!..

Oh gosh!. Luckily, I was at my bro's house. I had a panick attack at the moment. My father was blabbering, of course, nagging at me. But I just don't care. Then, my brother exchange the flat tyre with the spare one and revealed that the cause of this calamity is a NAIL. I was at wrong, I admit it coz I am the only one who used the car for those two days. but... but... but.. who wants her car's tyre to be punctured by a nail. And the size of the nail is so small. How could I notice that, right? But I am at wrong again for not noticing that the tyre had actually loosen a bit before. BUT still, I'm a girl . And you know how a girl drives.......

That day was an experience for me. Whatever it is, take the positive ones and discard the negatives. Okay, I'm going back revising. I had 3 more modules to be "digested".. I can only hope for the best.

WISH ME LUCKKKK

Too many things..

Salam..

Waaaaa.. I missed my blog. It's a long time since I last updated it. huhu..Too much to tell yet I dont have time.

OK:..let's go slowly

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First: 20 March 2010

SUPER JUNIOR came to Malaysia!!!!!.. I really regretted that I missed the concert. The price for the ticket is too expensive, you know. The reason being of why I didnt want to go to the concert. But after that, I read a lot of positive comments from the bloggers, then I felt depressed for not going.. huhu. I even told my bff about this. I spent about two days after that just doing you-tube- and blog-walking, finding stories and videos about them during their visit to M'sia..


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Second: Last week, my parents came here. Unfortunately, I had a course at Hospital Serdang oN Sunday. So, I couldnt go to meet them at my brother's house. Suddenly, my beloved Prof Hapizah bring forward her tutorial session -which was supposed to be held on Friday- on Thursday. Yey! My Friday was actually freeeeee.. So I skipped the CTU class on that Friday. My first time skipping a class this semester. hehehe.

I had a good and memorable time with my family. All my brothers gathered together, and we had lunch together at a relative's restaurant. The restaurant is very wonderful. If you like nature, you really should go there.

http://www.subak.com.my/

P/s* I'm not goin to post the pics, coz it takes too much time, and I'm dozing off at the moment..

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Last: I had been cheated by a con-man. I really thought I had been cheated although some of my friends still believe him. I will never give out my money without any resits.

end of me..

Salam.

I just ended my respiratory module. Which i find it really difficult so it's = bad in the exam. i wish i could redo it again. I missed 2 days of classes and practicals. To top of it, those two days were filled with practicals and sgs. I felt regret for not attending them. what can i do.....

I got conjunctivitis last week.. that's why i got 2 days mc.

SATURDAY:
The year 1 students of Faculty of Medicine was organizing a family day where all the staffs, lecturers, seniors from Selayang and Sg Buloh were invited. I t was very fun especially to see the lecturers playing the games.. haha.. really, it was memorable and enjoyable. Guess what, I took part in the "Tug of War".. Well, it's once in a lifetime I will be taking part in that game. That ONE game had actually made all my body -from top to down - ache the next day. I thought it was a simple game, just pull the rope. BUT (there's a big but..) it actually needs a lot of skill PLUS strength. And I dont have both. Well, my team lost in the first round. But okay la.. since it's my first time so it's an experience. I dont get to take lots of pictures that day. coz i was busy running here and there..and i dont know who's camera is taking my picture. haha.. i'm barely just a model..

SUNDAY:
I went to Sunway Pyramid meeting my sis, DR ELIDA MARINI ABDULLAH. (there's a reason behind those big letters.. hehe) . Okay, that was fine. But Nabihah is sick at that time. She had conjunctivitis. But my sis said she had allergic reaction. ............story continues.....


TUESDAY:
I got INFECTED already....huhu.. pity me.... got two days of mc. two days of missing classes and practicals. I missed the meeting with my juniors which I really anticipated.. too bad.. i did bad in the exam. My eyes are swollen and red and very painful. even until now, it's been a week already, my eyes are still itching and swelling. Even my friends can sense it..

YESTERDAY @ FRIDAY:
PT on the morning, bowling at night. Arrived at room around 10 o'clock. Before bowling: PIZZA~~.. :-D
Results:

End of CVS

Finally, three weeks of CVS has ended. The PT was very tough. huhu.. especially pharmacology. I dont expect high grade this time.

Before I almost forgotten, my result for the End of semester exam had come out. All students pass!!! That's a great achievement I think. Well, because of that, the dean was very generous in giving us approval for our events.

my matrix number: 2009846436

Yesterday was the PT, Alia really wanted to see a movie.. What's the title ek?.is it Sique de fuce.. or suqei du ficet.. I cant remember the title. and she wants GSC cinema which is unavailable in S alam. So, we decided to go straight to Times Square, right after class. Sadly, the class ends at 5 pm. huh...

Okay, change plan.. we wanna go to Jusco. coz it's late. And we need a taxi. But the taxi driver is very very very annoying!!. kalo x nak ambik passenger ckp je la x nak ambik.. dont give excuse such as jalan jam.. mmg la semua jln jam, sebb lepas office hour. everybody is rushing home. Even Jusco bukit raja tu pun dy tak nak pegi. mmg kemut la pakcik tu. Lastly, I asked him "Habis tu, pegi mane je yg boleh??..dah semua tak boleh pergi".. Of course in a sarcastic tone la. And he just laughed??.. urgh.. I'm really piss off... Luckily, at that time, our "survivor" came. (T529). So, in the end, we did go to times square.

Gile tak.. kelas kul 5, then bleh pegi times square yg kat kl n jauh tu, n boleh balik exactly at 11. Can u imagine how rushing we are. Jalan mcm tak cukup kaki jer. haha.. kind of crazy we are.. I even planned to overnight at UKM if there's no train to go back. However, we didnt get to see the movie coz the next plat is at 9.40 pm.

In the end, SHOPPING je la.. hehe.. it's very cheap u knoe.. Everything has a sale. I guess because Chinese New Year is just around the corner and Times Square is actually a place for chinese. Really!. Lots of chinese there... maybe we could call it china town.. ahhaha

Both of us spent around rm70.00 yesterday. After this, we want to get out to Jusco, just to see the movie we didnt get to watch.. really crazy!!.. If only I can be persistent in study just like this...

What am I doing??

I'm back to my downloading mode. Last Friday, I had my PT. So, on Saturday, I went to Jusco *phm2 la ye.. hehe*

Double movie dowh.. First, 2012 n then PISAU CUKUR. (Ni baru lepas PT.. kalo lepas Final??)
N then shopping. I spent about 200 rgt seiyh.. heee..

Last week, I spent most of my time downloading movies.
And I said to myself to CUT IT OUT during the revision week.
BUT,.. But...But.. Still I couldnt resist the temptation..
ahaha

Rite now, I'm downloading HARRY POTTER THE MOVIE.
I still dont know what movie I'm gonna download after this..
but hey, I've already addicted to this DOWNLOAD THING!!
This starts with only one movie,
Then, it goes on and on and on...
I'm spending most of my time in front of laptop currently.

And how I wish that I'm not like this...
Heish, final is just around the corner.
I kept reminding myself but still I didnt make any improvement.

Dear FRIENDS, GOD, MOM, ...... please help me.

Lalalala

Salam..

I just feel like writing today. Nothing special going on in my life rite now except I will have to sit for the final on 30th of Nov. And that's not a good news, rite?. I'm terrified to sit for that exam but still what am I doin rite now!!!! Oh God, help me!... How can I get away from my laziness and my addiction to these online-blogging-facebooking thing??.. There's lots of things to read. I wanna do a study group but somehow, I see that most of my friends are really hardworking, I couldn't cope up.

This Friday, I have a test for the current module : Hemopoetic and Lymphoid system. I still have vague knowledge of what I learn for the past 5 days. Sorry Dato', I cannot wrap up all the things today which means I cannot prepare for the next week's schedule tomorrow. ( He's my dean ) . Ok, next week there will be more lectures. Am I make myself look pathetic?.. Don't want to but can't help it. I am anticipating for the break but it's only 2 weeks holiday and of course it's not enuff.

Ok.. STOP with the blabbering, ENOUGH okay!!.. This is what I have to pay to become a doctor. I bet there are lots of friends out there who had life more difficult than I am. Thank God, I dont have to deal with feeling's problem. I think that's more troublesome and difficult to handle.

Now.. I'm going to face forward. No more turning back. I'm gonna set a new vision. Hope I will stick to it. =P.. STRIVE FOR THE EXAM ..yey!

Hectic week!!!!!!!!!

Salam..

This is the second week of my MSK module. It was really tiring with the schedule packed until 5pm everyday. 3 days in a row, I went back at 5. Not to mention that 3 days in a row also, I got classes full from morning to evening. And all the lectures required lots of attention which I couldnt give (coz i'm tired). I dont get enough sleep, and I have black eyes rite now. The funny thing is, my friends thought that I wear 'eye-shadow'.eye shadow? i dont even know how to put it.

I will have my PT in another 2 weeks, on the 30th of October. The next day will be my birthday!!.Yeiy!.. I'm looking for an outing that day. But to go through that 2 weeks will be very knackering. I'm still not used to too much burden. When will I??.. I know that I am supposed not to be like this, but I cant help it.

Hm.. It's okay, this is the game of studying. I will keep on fighting. But hey, I have a test next week. This week also and last week too. 3 tests in a row?? who can stand it??

Hope next week will be better for me.

+ money and atm card +

Salam..

Last week, I was like crazy coz my money and my atm cards ( 2 of them) had been stolen. That was my first time I had lost my ATM, I didn't know what to do. I cried like a baby when I had realized. I called my mom and told her while sobbing. ( ceit!..i' just making her more worried )
I lost RM100.00 plus my ATMs. But the damn-thief didn't stole my IC or any other cards in my purse. Even my purse is still safe with me. Duit kecik2 pun dy tak curi. He just took the big amount. Luckily, I didn't put my IC number as my pin number, padan muka that thief. He couldn't withdrew my money. At first, I was like "lost-with-no-direction". But now, I'm okay with it. Hoping that the thief will got his punishment and Allah will give him guidance. But that thief is urgh.... I dont know what to say la.. Even in Ramadhan, he still did that bad thing. Satan is not even here to persuade him. Only "nafsu" je kan.. tsk3..

I felt like I am the most unluckiest person in the world that day. But today, I got news which is far worse than my story. It was about my classmate, her money and ATMs also had been stolen (i think the same day when my money was stolen) . To top of it, she used her IC number as her pin and the thief is very 'clever' to crack it out. You can imagine what happened to her money in the bank, rite??

There's a thief amongst us. I'm very sure of that. Because we were not the only victims. Actually, there are a lot more cases but the victim didnt spread the news coz they didnt lose anything like I do. (Well, the 100 rgt canot be saved ). So, to all my classmates.. be aware okay??

" MEDIC TEAM "

Salam..

Today was the best day and the happiest day of my life in Uitm. Because I felt happy and energetic even until now, my heart is still jumping with joy.hehe. wonder why??

BECAUSE OF MEDIC TEAM!!!

What is this medic team?.. Briefly it is an event which is organized by medical students. The best part is I'm in-charge with the aerobic. Some of my friends involved in the Place and Location Bureau. They did a very good job last night. After practicing for my aerobic, I went to visit them in the hall. They were decorating the hall at that moment. And I was very boring so.. this happened. I became a cam-whore person these two days.. haha. I slept late last night. Not because of the practice but because of my cam-whore addiction. Haha...

Cute tak? Bleh tak kalo buat camni waktu tung?..hehe

Me and Amalina on the stage that I supposed to dance on the next day.
It was midnight u know

Pinky person yesterday. Some of my friends. They were waiting for the tent.
Pity them, they slept at 5 am.

NOW, today is the BIG day for me. Fyi, I also had a match for SAF today. So, I planned that as soon as the aerobic finished, I will go straight to the court.Sadly, only a few people come for our aerobic session. We were a little bit frustrated but it's okay than nothing rite? Then, suddenly I got news that woman's match is due tomorrow not today. As I had reached the field, so I became a supporter for my faculty's team. My aerobic's passion was still there so I was very excited.

TAKRAW
Medic vs Mechanical engineering
We win!!!

Speaking of takraw, this remind me of the hell engineering group. They were all boys and they were very energetic cheering for their team. However, we won. I guessed their player couldnt stand any psycho from us. We were also screaming to the top of our lung for our team.hehe. The players were just fine but the supporters were over excited.** supporters yg mcm nak gaduh, player biase2 je.haha**.To top of that, again we had a match with Mechanical engineering for TARIK TALI (L). However, we didn't win this time.

TARIK TALI (P)- win
TARIK TALI (L) - Lost with FKM.
(huh, their supporters were really excited about it)

My aerobic team. Love u all so much!! muah - 2x

At takraw's court.

After that, I went to Hand Ball's court. Waiting for our faculty's match. But the waitng was worthless coz our team won without competing. Pharmacy didn't sent their representatives so horray!!! for our team..haha..

Me with Afiqah. Spek mata hitam tu..hak33..
Those guys behind us were from electrical engineering.
Diorg kuat gak la mengaco kitorg td..huhu
tp it's okay kot coz diorg ensem..hehe.. =p

" Cadaver time "

MONDAY:
Last Monday, I went to PK to get a Hep B's vaccine's injection. It was so crowded there and there was a long queue of patients in there, of course they were students and they were all wearing mask. As soon as I entered the building, immediately I felt sick. Regarding with our current health situation, PK is not a good place for healthy people like me but I had to get that injection. So, I had to take a mask from the information counter, just for precautions. The worse thing is, the nurse injected me roughly that I felt the pain until now. Not all the time, but sometimes I felt my arm was 'burnt', at the particular place where she push in the needle before. Luckily, the next dose is 5 months away. That day too, I had a histology practical. I like this practical not because I like to use the microscope but because of the members of my group. They are very sporting and helpful.

my friend candid me..

before getting the vaccine. am i smiling or not? haha

TUESDAY:
I had co-curriculum that day and I was wearing the soldier-green-like-uniform. I hate it at first, but it looks pretty awesome in the picture I posted before.

WEDNESDAY:
I got my first chance to hold a cadaver!!!.. Scary as it sounds, rite?? huhu... But I was very excited since it was my first practical involving a cadaver. We learnt about muscle and skeleton. I wore a suit just like a surgeon in the hospital before operating.. haha.. I felt like one by wearing it. With all the mask and the glove and body protector, my friend said, I looks like a meat-seller. Huh.. as if he doesn't wear it.. Whatever it is, I really had fun though it was a bit scary to look at.
Oh, and after class ended, I had a petanque's practice ( didn't I mentioned earlier that I am participating in the petanque for SAF.. that's what the practice is for ). THe court was fulled. Luckily, one of the Sport Rec's student invite us for a friendly match with them. I was a little bit scared at first considering that they are Sport's students, but I didn't back off. So, I played for single game. Hey, guess what??.. I WONN>!!!.. yippe!..hehe (actually, my opponent doesn't know anything bout petanque. Basically, that's why I win but who cares??)

Mr Muscle.. Scary!!

THURSDAY:
I went to the anatomy lab again. This time, for Directed Self Learning session meaning that we learn by ourselves. The lecturer just guide us if we have any difficulties. It was good session since I had a very good learning progression with my groupmates. They had tonnes of extra-information that I didn't know.. That's what I like a bout study group. We 'played' with the cadaver again today.

What am I holding??..Oh no!!
**muka happy je tapi**

FRIDAY:
My first class started at 11 am.. yippee!! I had a very good sleep before that. haha.. Anyway, actually I practices for my aerobic for tomorrow. And I had a game tomorrow. All in one day..
I couldn't study rite now coz my head is filled off with these events and I was very excited about tomorrow.

:: These days, I'm into sports.. yey!! ::

Last Saturday, I accompanied by my friends who were very excited to attend the "petanque" workshop went to the Uitm's Sport's Centre. Unfortunately, nobody's there.. except for the players who were there because of SAF. So, we wandered around there without direction. Finally, we bacame the cheers for our Faculty's player.. haha.. **jauh menyimpang dr tujuan asal**.

the orange ones were faculty's player..

Netball match:

MEDIC vs PHARMACY
WE Won!!!!.. (3-2)

Basketball:

MEDIC vs FSG
We Lost..=(..
But for the cheers, we are NO 1. yey!

Kind of funny that day, because that was my first time watching a basketball match.I was very exited and screaming till my throat ache throughout the game. It was a tight match between medical faculty and FSG. Medic leads at the first half of the match but towards the end, the FSG always got penalty. Basically, our player were not very bad.. Irsyad, one of the player was superb. He played like a pro. I really admired him because he is so thin and not so tall yet he played amazingly. He is just like Troy in the High School Musical movie except that he didnt have a good voice i think..hehe.. (i dont know actually. it's just that i really admired him that i want to tell you about.)

Yesterday was my first day wearing that Kesatria's shirt. I didnt like it's colour at first, but hey.. it seems okay in these pictures, rite?

with Amalina in front of Izzati's room. ^^

Still posing even lepas ni nk kawad

" I'm at my bro's house"

Salam..

I'm at my bro's house at the moment. I drove here at 7 am.. Such early in the morning makes me sleepy but I managed to hold it. Nothing much to tell. Just that my 1 week holiday will end soon. I think I will be missing my home after this. i dont know why I felt homesick.

Anyway, as soon as our vice chancellor announced the mid sem break had been advanced, all my friends coincidentally were having fever (including me). Luckily, not H1N1. However, when we were at the campus, we were perfectly healthy but as soon as we reached home, we get all sorts of fever. Why?? Doesnt it weird? Suppose people gets disease at a "dense-people" place. Whatever it is, I hope my friends will fully recover before we start our class back.